Finally done with MC and part of WIL.
Have been sleeping so little these years..
Wah .. sound like I've been working really hard hor ..
I buay tahan liao
I need my sleep back
Argh~

I'm back for db training and this is my 1st training this year. Is that bad? It feels great to row once again. Feeling energised now, though I rowed in the rain on sat and row under hot sun today and even got sunburnt. I am getting back my tan. Wahahaha... Surprised to know that I still have the stamina to run and row sets of 500m up and down of bedok reservoir. Yesterday at the clubhouse, we got eskay to buy yu sheng from 3 different places and we "lau yu sheng". The whole place was in a mess even before I had the chance to lou. I put my hand in and there is goes all the yu sheng was on all over my hand. Lolz.. But it was nice, I recommended eskay to get one from Mayim and they got another one from Sakae Sushi, both were nice. So yummy~
Then after that I went to meet adr, say chuan & ivy for crab. Was supposed to go Raffes hotel to eat, but ivy realised that the voucher she wanted to use cannot be used on a weekend. *puff*
So, we ended up eating at Botantic Gardens foodcourt. Yah~ A foodcourt. But botanic gardens is not as bad as I though. Nice ambience if it wasn't a foodcourt but a posh restaurant there.

Today training was shiong. It'd been like one month since we had this shiong training. But it feels great knowing that you are burning your body fats. Wahaha... I don't wanna grow fat and can't shop for nice nice clothes in europe. Lolz ...

Sorry for the stupid things I did
Fill with regrets now
Happened to see something
To see your thoughts
I'm sorry
I didn't realise the how deep I've hurt you
In the past ...
To have taken everything for granted
To have thought that some things were not important
To fully understand how you felt then
For all the hurt
For how long it hurt you
I'll make up for it
For as long as possible
With my life ...~

~I can't forgive myself~
*cries*

Last lesson today felt so relaxing
Sad to know that I won't meet up with the same people again
But I've got no choice yah
Exams from both schools will clash
Moreover, I'm going off sraight after exams
So, there ain't no point
It was a slow day today
Thought it would be a nice day for me
Who knows ...
My external hard disk died on me
Shitty~
All my data gone
Cannot be retrived ..
Sad ... My pictures, My files from past semeseters etc
Sighs~
If anyone reads this & can help me retrieve, please let me know
I'm desperate for help
Lolz
Unlucky day ...
It may seemed ... Maybe from another perspective, it may be something fresh too...
I don't know
Things happened for a reason, isn't it ... ??

I could feel that effort & the personal touch
The effort for assurance
The effort to make me feel your presense
It's good to know that I'm always on your mind
*smiles*


~How I wish I were there~

Happy feet calendar poster
Lao yu shen
Bak kut tei
Chilli soto and prawns
Strawberry sundae
Cup corn
Hot Milo
Cheese hotdog
New year goodies
For one more day
Travel kettle
Weighing scale
Vaude
23.9; 10
710
D44
405
yeah~ safe ...

Swoosh
Gone in a flash
Back
Lost
Yet revitalized & motivated
By promises
By the wait
All of a sudden
There seems to be a long list of things I need to do
GMT +8 --> GMT +9 --> GMT +1
Time space

My birthday
It falls on the 1st day of Chinese New Year
First time ...
Or maybe the second time if I were to include the day when I was born
So many events happening on this day
I don't even know what kinda of feelings I was feeling
I don't even know what mood am I in ... on this day
Chinese New Year mood?
Birthday mood?
Parting mood?
Mixed ... ?
But I know I am not really in the New year mood
Lolz ...
Went visiting yesterday at grandparents' place
My mum's side ... They remembered my birthday
So, I got double red packets
Cool
As for my dad's side, no one remembers
But ... I'm alright with that
Not close with them anyway
As long as people who loves me remembers
That is good enough for me ~
Planned to go eat at Max Brenner yesterday
But it wasn't open
Went all the way there
Such a disappointed
Then it would be a bit dumb to go back west for the "Protege"
So juz had to watch it at marina sq where no shops are open
and had to spend 2 hours wandering around
But it was an enjoyable day
Strolling around
Just enjoying the slow pace of time

Mes cadeaux d'anniversaire

Waking up ... today
After realizing that it's saturday
I just tear
Mornings can be emo as well~

Wed was the start of my steamboat marathon.. Lolz
2 consecutive days
Sitting at the table for hours juz stuffing & stuffing food
A few days
I guess it's enough for you to grow fat
Plus I haven't been going training for 4 weeks this year
This is bad ...

Met up with pj & nana for steamboat ytd
So long ...
I meant pj
It'd been so long since we met up
Her hair is still as toot
Lolz ...
But it's nice to chat a bit
The last time we met is July 2006
That is when we celebrated her birthday
Seemed like she haven't been updated about many things
But still, there're still topics to talk about
Unlike some gatherings where things start to get awkward ... Lolz
Tried psycho-ing her to go Japan with us
Knowing that she has gone "bankrupted" from the previous trips
But still we all hope pj can join us :)

The process~
Still fresh in my mind
Can still remember precisely what happened
Every single thing
I am starting to enjoy it all over again
Just like re-birth
Feel juz like a new born
Getting all the love & affection
All the attention
I wanna remember every single thing..
So please don't do what u did again ok?

Ma po tofu
Your speciality
It'd been so long since I tasted that
How nice is it to eat it again
It'd been great
Preparing for dinner
I'll miss being your assistant in the kitchen~

I had the best dinner today

Chatted with ferny yesterday
It'd been a long time since we chatted & exchange thoughts
It's nice to be able to express my thoughts to you once again
It's been a long long time
Sounds old?
Maybe....
3 years~
It's been 3 years
And she said I sounded different
I seemed to be matured, calm and serious now
Compared to when I was younger
When her impression of me was a happy-go-lucky person,
& One who is crazy all the time.
I seemed to take things more slowly now
Yes ...
I guess it's true
You've seen it or rather feel it
I guess it's because people changes over the years
We grow, don't we?
See more things in life
Self-realization ~
Of things we used to put priorities on
right and/or wrong...
Discovering what matters to you most
Realizing that you exist on your own
& should never let insignificant issues affect you...
Ever wonder why you get so affected by what others say about you?
Ever wonder why do you get upset when others made nasty remarks on your body, your face, your results, your life, your privacy?
What are the reasons for them to do that?
Because they care?
Nah...
Bullshit~
Most people who gave comments on those are usually one of the many people around you
Just like fruit flies crowding around bananas
Insignificant~
BUT why do we get so affected?
Block all these out
Imagine yourself in a vacuum
You are inside a vacuum
You are yourself in there
In the dark~
What do you feel?
You will see yourself there
You will see how vulnerable you are
When you are alone
Wonder why people feel especially emotional at night?
Why people normally cry in the night?
Alone ~
In the dark~
That is because you feel yourself only at night
You see yourself when you are alone in the dark
Without the husk that masked you
Without the mask that you display to the public in the day
How else can you be you?
That can be achieved by being you...
As mentioned in the book "How full is your bucket?" by Tom Rath,
You feel good when you make others feel good
His theory of people having their own buckets and dippers:
There are two kinds of people,
One would be those who dipped into others' buckets to fill their own
& the other kind would be those who help others fill their own buckets
And in turn fill their own
Due to the satisfaction they received at the end of the day for having to fill others' buckets
Be the latter...
You will realized you live a richer life
Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community, devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning
Material is inconsequential in any way
When you try to show off to people above you, they will still look down upon you anyway;
When you try to show off to people below you, they'll only envy
Status gets you nowhere,
Only an open heart will allow you to float equally betwen people
Only then will you see yourself~

It's Monday today.....
It's getting close
Closer & closer each day
Feeling dreadful?
Or getting impatient?
The period~
Hope it goes by swift & smoothly
Another period~
Hope this will be slow
Or even stagnant
Holding on~

想听的话

Zeros to heros:
A board game invented by my lecturer Richard Mak. It is one game that aims to bring out the enterprising spirit of the player. I've played other board games (eg cashflow) before but this zeros to heros is indeed interesting. There are lesser recordings compared to "cashflow" which requires each of the player to have the fundamentals of doing double entry. It does reflect the attitudes of a person toward risk taking, initiative and also how to plan strategically.

Been working for the past weekend & this explains the why I haven't been blogging. It'd been so busy, sleeping less & less hours. But I was glad that you came to find me on both weekends. It'd been a long time since I feel the affection and the love from you. Though it may sound trival to some people, to me, it ain't. It's a big deal and i appreciate it. One of the few times where my requests were satisfied. Brought food for me and even waited for me to end work to go for dinner together. It'd been a long time since we can have quality time together, enjoying each others' company and most importantly, there weren't any complains or grumbling from you that day. You even brought me pressies...~

I'll remember these 2 days... of you coming down & juz giving me your time.

The days are short
The wait is long
Counting down to the days
Has brought tears to my face
The day you leave
Will be my day of birth
Should it be a day to rejoice,
Or a day to part?
The days of forlornness awiats

Time is too slow for those who wait
Too swift for those who fear
Too long for those who grieve
Too short for those who rejoice
But for those who love,
time is eternity
Hours fly....
flowers die...
new days
new ways pass by
Love stays ~

Having to go thru 4 semesters of entrepreneurship modules, I've learnt how to come up with a business plan, how to do a feasibility study, how to manage a growing business and so on. All I was taught was how to finance your business and how to maximise profits. It is until this last semester that I get to know this term "social entrepreneur". What this means is giving back to society. We all know that the essence of doing business is to maximise profits but never did we realise that giving back to the society is as significant as maximising profits. I guess everyone can do business and fully utilize the resources to increase profits. But how many of us can develop the passion to give back to society, to work with altrustic and philanthropic objectives. Not many of us can and if you do reach that stage of realization, I believe that your life will be much more enriching than anyone else. To reach that stage of postconventional morality in Kohlberg's theory of moral development, you would have reach enlightenment.
A guest speaker, Noel Tan, was invited to my leecture today to tell his story of being a social entrepreneur, what he does and how he touch people's lives. From his contributions to the society, he learnt how to appreciate life more. What he did was to provide help to abandon children, to give them proper care and love, to put them in proper care. It is really nice to hear the story of the Noel who just received a social entrepreneur award in 2006. It is indeed an inspiring story. If anyone is keen to know more, this is the website http://www.sanctuaryhouse.com.sg/

"Social entrepreneurs are not content just to give a fish or teach how to fish, they will not rest until they have revolutionized the fishing industry" - Bill Drayton